So another day has passed and the world goes on. Today started out just like any other day, I woke up around noon and got up just before work to do nothing. I really don't need to be parading this information but at this very moment I really just don't care in complete honesty. My boss talked to me and told me that my DM (district manager) is concerned that my friendships with employees is getting in the way of my leadership. I think that is a load of shit. Well as to most things I can see where she would get the idea....well let me explain. I am considered "Mr. nice guy" at work. I know what my strengths and my weaknesses are. Once upon a time just before I became a shift this kid named Josh started at Starbucks. At the time I was excited to have a new friend, but little did I know that we would become best friends. After I became a Shift supervisor I learned that technically shifts are not suppose to hang out with Batista's outside of work, but our store was so close that it didn't seem to matter. I got some warnings so to say, about not letting my friendships affect my ability to lead at work. In my opinion I didn't think it was that bad. Looking back, now that Josh no longer works at sbux, I can see that maybe I let it affect me. At the time I would have taken a friendship like that over working at Starbucks, its a job and like they say "it's just coffee." As for right now I don't think I am letting any friendships at work affect my abilities to lead. I can honestly say that I work my ass off. I put a lot of effort into making other people happier than I am. I work through my lunches for the sake of getting out on time. I skip my lunch because I know there isn't enough time in the day if we want to get out on time. I feel like I communicate very well, I sell the product and I fulfill my job description. I don't know how else I can say or show that I do my job and I do it well. I may not be perfect but no body is. So what I can say is that I know the things that I need to improve upon and I am working on it. I need to stop trying to please others, because not everyone is going to be happy, so they need to get the fuck over it and move on. There is going to be a change in me, it will be difficult but I need to take a stand and apparently show that I am a leader. Apparently leaders cant be nice, and you can't be friends (that's not going to happen). I am sorry but if you can't have friends in your place of work, then whats the point of getting to know someone and being around them all the time if you can't get along with them? I am not saying you have to go out and party or eat or anything with these people but if you can't build relationships with the people that you might see more than your significant other or family...then there is a problem. Anyways I think I am repeating myself in different ways. On my drive home tonight I was thinking about this talk with my boss and it started to make me feel like others should feel bad for me, then I started think to hell with it and that I didn't care, then I started not knowing what to think. I am past it now for the most part, I know what action needs to be done and it will happen. I am just tired of work right now. I feel like I get the brash out of a lot of things...and all I can say is that I feel like hard work often times goes unnoticed at our store...I am beyond ready for something new. I used to really enjoy working at Starbucks but as of late it has become more and more obvious to me that it is a job. I am ready for a career. On that note, last night I posted on facebook that I have a mix of young friends and older friends. Having younger friends makes me wish I were fresh out of high school and going to college and having fun. Having older friends makes me wish I were getting married. As for the marriage thing, which, might I add, a lot of people are prodding me to do, I have been thinking about it often. I would love for Ali and I to get married as there is no doubt in my mind we will be together the rest of our lives. It all goes back to that one thing, the topic of yesterdays blog...Money! I want to give her everything she wants and deserves. I want us to have an amazing wedding. I also need to talk to her Dad and ask for his daughters hand in marriage, as I am old-fashioned like that. I have been saying that I didn't want to get married until I could at least legally drink too and that will be soon! All the talk of settling down and buying a house and getting married used to annoy me but now the thought of it seems like a fantasy and a reality that I want more than a lot of other things right now.
On a lighter subject, I am extremely pleased to announce that I am ready for my next tattoo and am arranging a date. I can't wait! It is the only thing that I am looking forward to right now, and the fact that I am turning 21 and now can legally drink after a long day at work! Cuz God knows I could use some booze after some of these days!
Well that is all I have for now.
Out(.)(.) <---yupp those a boobs. Yeah I know...real mature, but Idgaf
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