It's crazy that a photo of someone can make you feel such an extreme emotion. Looking at this photo of someone that is not really a part of your life and feeling like somehow its your fault when really it's not. Wow...I am realizing more and more every day that something is wrong with me...I am extremely too much of a people pleaser. I feel like this stops me from fully showing my true emotions. I am too worried what others might think. I don't know how I got this way but thats how I am. I am Mr. Nice guy... Gah I hate that. I hate being the person that always says yes, the person that gets taken advantage of because they can read you like an open book...Back to that person, I can't help but think how I don't even know this person who is an important figure in one's life. At the same time I feel like I am hurting others by wishing I knew this person. There I go again thinking of others. Not to say that thinking of others is bad but sometimes, like in my case, I need to think about myself sometimes... Speaking of me, my birthday is almost here. Not that I am really that excited. I keep going back and forth...I guess I am excited for the minor things about it...New drivers license, day off work...finally time with Ali is what I am most excited for. I could use some time with the love of my life.
On a random note, I want a washer and dryer. I think I also want to move when our lease is up here. I will always have a fondness for our first place but I think we can do better ;)
In other news, my tattoo is flaky and itchy haha. I think I will need to go get some touch up work done on it but it still looks great! I do not regret my decision. With it now I feel a little bit more bad ass. HA!
Anyways I think that is all for now...
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